Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Well, I got through Christmas, but it was the worst Christmas of my life. My dad passed away unexpectedly on the evening of Christmas. What a shock that was to me...and still is. I honestly thought this year couldn't get any worse, but I was wrong. The only consulation I get from this is knowing that he is with my three girls right now. I absolutely cannot wait until 2009 and I don't ever want to look back. Good riddance 2008.


Anonymous said...

Oh No. All I could do was gasp when I read this. I'm so, so sorry. Unfair, unfair, unfair! My prayers are with you all. May 2009 be a wonderful, happy, blessed year for you. God knows (literally) you deserve it.

Krista said...

I am so sorry to hear this news. May 2009 be a much better year. Best wishes.

Brenna's Mom said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. (As if you haven't lost enough this past year, right?) I hope 2009 brings you all the joy and peace you deserve.

Supa Sparks said...

Jen we are so sorry about your dad. Our hearts ache for you and your family. we love you and will be praying for you.

Beth said...

Nobody should have to go through what you have gone through this year. I am so, so sorry to hear about your dad.

Misti said...

I have been reading your blog since the beginning of December, I delivered my stillborn Eli on Nov. 26 at 31 weeks. The only way someone can understand what this feels like is to have it happen to them. And I am right there with you. To lose 3 precious babies it does seem so unfair, life seems so unfair alot of the time too. It warmed my heart to read that you wrote your father is with your three beautiful daughters. Our losses are heavens gains. May 2009 be full of happiness for everyone.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. You have been through so much. I hope 2009 is a much kinder and joyful year.

staceyshawn said...

Man, Jenell... I am SO sorry for your loss. I'm really speechless. I just want you to know that I love you--I've always thought that you're a really special person. I hope and pray with all my heart that 2009 brings better things your way.

Anonymous said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry for your loss, and for your family. My prayers are with y'all, and your babies and Dad.
-Stephanie, a reader from Texas

Taraf33 said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I think of you often. Your strenght is an inspiration. I pray that 2009 brings nothing but good things for you...Tara

Erika said...


I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your dad. As if you haven't already endured enough pain in the past year. I am praying for you, and my heart aches for you. Huge hugs. I sincerely hope that 2009 brings hope, happiness, healing, and joy. Again, I am so very sorry to hear about your dad's passing.

Solomon Family said...

Hi Jenell,

I just read your blog, following it from the baby centre one... I got sick and then I was in the hospital and on bed rest... blah blah blah... everything is fine. And I finally got round to reading up on the group and was so sad to learn that your babies died. I am so sorry. I have no idea how you are feeling, your husband too. I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and you are in my prayers. I couldn't believe your dad had passed too! life is so unexpected... I hope you will find the love and meaning you need:-)

Annie said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad. It is hard to be the one left here sometimes when you know they are all healthy and whole living with Christ! I am thankful you have such a hope in your life. I will be praying for you and your family.

Jenny said...


I'm so sorry to hear the sad news about your father. My internet has been down at home for a few days and I just got the chance to check this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time. I love you!

Amy Peterson said...

We are always thinking of you two and praying that 2009 is better. Love you!

mrsmuelly said...

OMG Jenell. I am very behind here...but this is just awful. I am so very, very sorry. I will be praying for you and your family.

Melissa said...

Dear Janell,
My husband and I will continue to cover you and your family in prayer. We lost a close friend 8 months ago and can only image your sense of loss right now. May God comfort you and lead you in this time.
Your stranger friends,
Melissa and Chad

Emily said...


You don't know me at all. I'm from the BBC March board and caught your story a while back. I just wanted to say how sorry I am. It's appalling to me that someone would have to go through what you have gone though. I'm amazed by your faith and am praying for you. Here's to a much better year in 2009.

Anonymous said...

You have led me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
on a back bruised, nearly broken
I'm crying out to You

I will sing of Your mercy
that leads me through valleys of sorrow
to rivers of joy

when death, like a gypsy
comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek your face
but I fear You aren't listening
because there are no words
just the stillness
and the hunger
for a faith that assures

I will sing of Your mercy
that leads me through valleys of sorrow
to rivers of joy
alleluia, alleluia
alleluia, alleluia

while we wait for rescue
with our eyes tightly shut
face to the ground using our hands
to cover the fatal cut
though the pain is an ocean
tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
higher mountains have come down

I will sing of Your mercy
that leads me through valleys of sorrow
to rivers of joy
I will sing of Your mercy
that leads me through valleys of sorrow
to rivers of joy

Jars of Clay

Anonymous said...

I'm still thinking of you.

celeste said...

Dear Jenell,

I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you and your husband. I found your blog randomly (even though nothing is random with God) when I was looking for some understanding to my daugther's passing. I was 21 weeks and 6 days when my sweet baby when with Jesus. She was born alive but passed away two hours later in her father's arms. We named her Samantha Mercy because God heard us and in His mercy gave us our beloved daughter. The doctors said that I had gotten an infection and that my cervix had dilated (sorry if this is too much information).

I can't imagine losing two more precious children. You are a brave woman Jenell and I believe that God will continue to comfort your heart (and your husbands heart) during this terrible season.

My heart hurts for you. Please know that you are in my prayers and in my heart. I would love to know how you are doing and how God leads you through the darkness. I don't know if you will keep writing in this blog but I'll keep checking.

"For the LORD comforts his people
and will have compassion on his afflicted ones" Isaiah 49:13

Morgan said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your dad. :(